A Letter to 2019

As this time of the year approaches and is finally about to come to an end, I always reminisce on about everything that I went through throughout the year, this time it feels quite different because I won't look at the negative or more like, all the things that didn't happen, aka getting a job for example, but I will look on all the positive and good things. 

If I were to describe how this year was in one complete sentence I could say that this year has been the most beautiful yet special one, and if I were to describe it in one single word it had to be "family", it was all about them and only them; so many special moments and memories spent with them and I am definitely keeping and treasuring it all. 

2019 was one of my best years so far, and I am thankful for all the amazing moments it brought to my life, especifically the ones spent with my loved ones. I got to experience it all by being surrounded with them during the good and bad times, but were those bad times, that made us closer and the bond stronger. Many things didn't happen but that's because they weren't meant to, it wasn't the right time for it and I understood it, and one of them was, not having a job, even though I had two more job offers this year, I also rejected them both as well because I was already having a good time with my loved ones and now that I keep on looking back over and over again, I do not regret it and never will because if I have had a job, I wouldn't have experienced any of these moments the exact same way I have, and it would have been different, my reactions to certain moments would of have been different as well and it wouldn't be the same, so because of that, I don't regret it, it was absolutely the best and there's nothing to worry about, I know I'll get a job, be it here or overseas but it will happen, I already know that but I am and will forever be so thankful for these moments.

It's not that I never understood the value of the family nor that I never appreciated it, because all my life, I have been surrounded by them more than I have with friends, but I valued them even more, I longed in my heart to make memories, memories I could remember, I saw a miracle happen right in front of my eyes, like I said, I was with family, during the good and bad times, and never in my life I noticed how it was during the bad times that we got even closer as a family,  I longed in my heart to end the year, with a trip with my family and it happened, early this year my aunt and cousin. gave us the news that they were both expecting, and also longed in my heart to get to meet the little cousins, one was already born Dec 21st and the other one isn't here just yet.

My heart is so full and I live for and love moments like these, I am really really thankful for it and wouldn't wish it was any other way because it was just as perfect as the way it was.

On the other hand, there was so much thinking and looking back at me as a person, so much growth and maturity, but also had sit-down moments where I would look at and compare myself as to how I was years before, I also got to understand things a little bit more but this time with an open-mind full of so much wisdom like I could see myself as a changed person, got to understand why some things didn't happen the way I wanted to years ago or why things happened the way they happened, I got to understand it all and appreciate it.

It was a year where I also got to meet beautiful souls all over on my instagram, I have never cared about numbers or even growing my social media, but this year I gained not only followers but more like new friends, I am thankful for each one of them that I have met so far and couldn't be any happier, be it temporary or for a lifetime, I am thankful for them and to get to know me better, I am not normally like this type of social person, and always super shy at first, but there has been moments where I have exchanged a few messages here and there with them, and we have clicked, and I have had a good time talking even if for a couple of minutes.

My Faith is still intact for 2020, I know it will also be another good year and I will let God surprise me. I don't have expectations nor plans nor resolutions you name it, but I will keep on working hard to change things about me that still need a change (for the better) and keep on growing and the rest will follow. I hope nothing but the best of the best not only for me but for you all who have followed me here for years, I thank you for that and appreciate every single comment, they made me so happy, I know I was absent this year and didn't post as much but I wasn't feeling it plus this was something I put aside and only came back when I truly felt like sharing something, so all the comments I got thank you. You know, I thought blogging was "dead" (in my mind) but from my recent posts, I saw it is not and I am glad for that heart-warming welcome, the fact that you guys take the time to read my very and overly long posts, wow, you all deserve a hug, haha. But this is how I can express myself better so thank you for reading me, plus it's a bonus because you get to know me better through my writing. ;)

Nothing left to say other than I wish you all, success, health, love and all the very best and most beautiful things in life for you all. God bless you all!

With love,
Melissa