The Idea Of Turning 24

There has been so much quiet stillness going on here on this blog of mine, life was pretty weird if you ask me and the uncertainty of not knowing why I was feeling the way I was – back then – was what I questioned the most in that moment. On and off my mood changed in the blink of an eye from time to time, and ultimately was a lesson for me to learn and to wide open my eyes. My hopes also were on the floor and I was found to be struggling – one more time – with my own fears, fears I did not know exactly what they were about but that were there waving holla at me like "Hello girl, I'm here".

A time where many things happened and others did not go as expected, I guess it was just another phase of my life, that now it’s gone and has vanished on its own, slowly but it has. I want to always reminisce on all the good and the bad for that I want to dedicate this post to myself and for having turned 24 yesterday but also for being 23, because it was an entire year of some many emotions, emotions that grew their own roots deep inside my heart that were hard to let go of and I am never usually this type of sentimental; but  it also felt a bit of a tad bittersweet moment. Undoubtedly being 23 was indeed a good year & phase of my life, and those were the days. . . 

Honestly I’m never excited for birthdays, never have I and I never celebrate them either, I tend to be on a very low mood that day for one reason or another, and it’s just not my cup of tea, mayhap. However for the past couple of months, I tried my best so hard to work on myself by letting go of so many things, the idea of turning 24 in the first place never scared me, yes I was going to be a year older but this time it just felt it was going to be very special to me and I felt like i really knew it was going to be a time where many new and amazing things would start to happen; and eventually they did happen before turning 24; so that even makes it dearer to my heart, it was probably the best gift I’ve ever gotten.

The idea of turning 24 now feels like a brand new chapter, a new phase of my life where I want to keep on growing and learning, as a woman and professionally, but mostly a chapter where I want to be the woman I aspire to, it’ll be a time full of changes where I’ll be probably transitioning myself most of the time, I don’t know where God and life will take me to, I just feel like I may be ready for what's about to come. I have finally let go completely of things that were mortifying me for the past few years, worrying for nothing but the future, instead of caring about the moment, the present itself, and those are the days that no longer will come back.

All I have to say now, it's there's so much excitement and I can't contain myself from it; yet I will just let thing happen the way they are supposed to and I'll cherish this moment for now.