December 31, 2018

A Letter To 2018






Reminiscing on about what a year this has been; so much has happened and I don’t even know how to put it all into words but the feelings will speak on its own and I’ll write this as they just start flowing…

If I were to describe how this year was in one complete sentence I could say that

This year has been kind of weird but at the same time it could probably be the most beautiful of them all and the best thus far.

It was undoubtedly a year of much learning, of waiting, of being patient and of trusting, a year of appreciating every little thing I have. Also a year of so much self-love, self-confidence and even self-growth. Things did not go as planned and/or expected but one more time I understood that my plans aren’t God’s plans – actually His plans are my plans and everything will happen at the right time, His time; because there’s a time for everything. Besides of it all, I loved every single second I spent with my family; each one of them; never have I felt so loved, never have I laughed this much or have enjoyed life and the smallest things just like I did, especially these past few months and are moments like these that I will treasure for a lifetime.

Emotions and life itself felt like what it was another roller coaster, and it was a crazy one ride – one of the best things to ever happen was back in March, I got my degree as a professional Fashion Designer, which is one of the best highlights of this year; I honestly never thought I would graduate, this one journey itself has been an amazing one and I’ll never stop thanking God and my family for their entire support and I know my success is also theirs; and after what it was a good triumph, I thought I was ready to look out for a job; I went downhill off a cliff after being at the top of a mountain; my emotions were mostly sadness and had way too many fears but I learned that’s okay to feel it; I just didn’t know exactly what those emotions meant to me; I didn’t feel like going out either, I just wanted to be home, by my own. As the months started passing by, I slowly re-gained back my happiness and when I thought I was ready to get a job I knew I wasn’t ready at all or maybe that job was not the right one, so I ended up rejecting what it was my first job offer; I didn’t feel bad because I trusted myself and what I wanted and what I’ve been looking for in a job and that one wasn’t none of that, so slowly I gave up on things that do not longer matter; somehow along the way, my fears seem to have disappeared also, and I hope they’re gone once for good.

2018 was truly special and magical just the way it was, in every sense of word, shape and form. I am not going to say “I wish this would’ve or wouldn’t have happened” because then, I wouldn’t be where I am at this point and in all honesty, despite of the things that did not happen, I gained much more than that, than what it would be considered something material. So, NO, I don’t wish for anything because this year was SO GOOD to me, and all of this made it truly special and dear to my heart. One for the records, a year I’ll never forget because it has really been special in so many ways and I won’t take that for granted. 

Also, I see myself as a changed person or someone that’s going through lot of changes; not sure exactly how I have changed or what has changed In my persona but I feel different ever since I said NO to that job offer; something feels differently nowadays and I have loved that feeling ever since, it always bring a big smile on my face. 

Thanks 2018 for everything you brought, for everything that happened whether it was good or bad but then ended up turning into good also, thanks for the memories that I'm now going to treasure for a lifetime, thank you for that and so much more! Being closer to God was something I started doing beginning of year then stopped and then got back at it again, and right now, I love the fact that our relationship feels stronger than ever and I’m beyond happy that I’ve reached my goal even though it seemed almost impossible and hard to but now my one and only goal forever is to be always closer to Him .

I know 2019 will be filled with so many blessings and good things but other than that, I’ll strive to work more on my spiritual life and also on myself, to keep on learning and growing and just continue enjoying life and my loved ones and the time I have with them, I wish for nothing but all the best for them, love, happiness, health, peace and the same goes for you guys who have made it this far while reading this long post of mine. I hope your 2019 is filled with amazing, but amazing blessings and many good things! I wish you nothing but the very best always!


With love,
Melissa. xx

21 comments:

  1. WOW, your writing never cease to amaze me Melissa! This is so beautiful! Loved every bit of it! I have to agree and say that yes, there comes a point in life where you don't care/worry about certain things, you just wait for them to happen and honestly they turn out being better than what you thought and/or expected. It's honestly a beautiful feeling! I wish you also the best for this 2019, may all your dreams/goals come true and hope you can keep on writing and sharing more of you here - even if it's every once in a while. You're truly an inspiration and I'm sure you have no idea how much! Don't ever stop writing, but above all being who you are. I don't know you but through posts like this one I can get a tiny glimpse into your life, thoughts and also be in your shoes, because I've seen what you've gone through, whilst reading all these posts! All the best for you always babe! Sending lots of love to your way! ♥ xoxo

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    1. Thank you SO much Maria Paula! That's so true, and it always surprises me every time, so yeah, it definitely is the most beautiful feeling! Thanks once again babe for your lovely wishes, I truly appreciate it and your words and support really mean a lot to me; thanks for following me throughout the years in this journey of mine and do not worry, I'll be back to blogging or I hope so. Aww, thanks and lots of love to you too! xx

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  2. What a beautiful post! 💕 Seems like after all you had an amazing one! I wish you a very happy new year and hope it’s filled with wonderful things as well! Hope you get back to writing and blogging soon, if not it’s alright! I truly missed reading your blog! :) xx

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    1. Thank you SO much Tuğba for your wishes! I know, I've missed writing/blogging as well but hopefully I'll be back at it anytime soon or I hope so! xo

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  3. This is so beautiful Melissa! What a year it was! I love how you’re always so grateful despite whether it was good or not! I hope this new year brings itself so many blessings and may the desires of your heart come true; each one of them! Wish you the best, girl! ❤️

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    1. Thank you SO much Camille! You're such a beautiful soul; may God bless you always! Well, being grateful is the least thing I should do always instead of complaining and questioning too many why's, instead I'm grateful for whatever happens in my life whether it was good or bad but then turned out good as if it had taught me a lesson or something else! Amen, wish the same for you always! xo

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  4. Congrats on getting your degree. Wishing you the best in 2019!

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  5. Happy new year babe! Wishing you also the best and may be this the year you’ll get a job! Also, once again congratulations on your degree, wishing you have a long life successful career! This honestly was so beautiful to read, keep on writing love! Sending lots of love to your way! ♥️

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    1. Thank you SO much Mikayla and amen!!! Also, thanks for the love and support always, I'm very happy to know that and don't worry i'll continue on doing so! Lots of love to your way as well! xo

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  6. I love your words about striving to keep learning and growing throughout 2019. I truly hope this year is a wonderful one for you Melissa, you deserve it!

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    1. Thank you SO much Gabrielle! I hope it will be as well as for you; thanks for following me! Lots of love! xo

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  7. This was an absolutely beautiful read. It's awesome that you trusted yourself when it came to that job offer. So many people just say "I guess this is good enough" and take the first thing that comes their way. Stay true to you! Much love!

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    1. Thank you so much Emily! Yes, even though it seemed as a 'good offer', it wasn't what I wanted or what I'd been looking for. It didn't feel like it was the one either! Sending lots of love to your way! xx

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  8. What a beautiful letter, I hope you have a wonderful 2019!
    Have a lovely day :)
    Rosanna x
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    1. Thank you so much Rosanna! I wish the same for you; have a lovely and happy weekend! xx

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  9. Sounds like you had an amazing year in 2018 with some high's and low's. 2018 was also a year for a lot of self-growth for me as well. Where I started at the beginning of 2018 drastically changed so much by the end of 2018 and I'm really proud of how much I've grown. I hope 2019 will be just an amazing year for you as well.

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    1. Thank you so much Atsuna! Yes, it was indeed, but I'm thankful for it as I loved and enjoyed every moment of it, and by the last few months left of 2018 everything seemed different and perfect and I saw myself as a changed person too; it was weird but good yet also special! xx

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  10. I'm so glad you were able to look back on 2018 with such positivity! It's good you can let go of the things that don't really matter, and the right job will happen when it's time, so keep doing as you're doing and building your confidence! You sound like you're in such a happy place!
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    1. Thank you SO much darling! This is by far one of the best comments I’ve received and I don’t know why but somehow it has also made me so happy and smile; maybe I just needed this! 2018 taught me so much that instead of me complaining about the things that didn’t happen I felt thankful for that and all I went through throughout the year. Definitely yes, I am in a happy place and I’ve never felt this way before but oh it feels so good! Wouldn’t change that for anything! Once again thanks for your comment babe! Have a lovely day and happy weekend! xo

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  11. I love how you write. Hehe your words are so poetic and it sounds like 2018 was a beautiful year for you. I hope 2019 will bring you as much learning and joy as 2018 did.

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