A Letter To 2018

Reminiscing on about what a year this has been; so much has happened and I don’t even know how to put it all into words but the feelings will speak on its own and I’ll write this as they just start flowing…

If I were to describe how this year was in one complete sentence I could say that

“This year has been kind of weird but at the same time it could probably be the most beautiful of them all and the best thus far”.

It was undoubtedly a year of much learning, of waiting, of being patient and of trusting, a year of appreciating every little thing I have. Also a year of so much self-love, self-confidence and even self-growth. Things did not go as planned and/or expected but one more time I understood that my plans aren’t God’s plans – actually His plans are my plans and everything will happen at the right time, His time; because there’s a time for everything. Besides of it all, I loved every single second I spent with my family; each one of them; never have I felt so loved, never have I laughed this much or have enjoyed life and the smallest things just like I did, especially these past few months and are moments like these that I will treasure for a lifetime.

Emotions and life itself felt like what it was another roller coaster, and it was a crazy one ride – one of the best things to ever happen was back in March, I got my degree as a professional Fashion Designer, which is one of the best highlights of this year; I honestly never thought I would graduate, this one journey itself has been an amazing one and I’ll never stop thanking God and my family for their entire support and I know my success is also theirs; and after what it was a good triumph, I thought I was ready to look out for a job; I went downhill off a cliff after being at the top of a mountain; my emotions were mostly sadness and had way too many fears but I learned that’s okay to feel it; I just didn’t know exactly what those emotions meant to me; I didn’t feel like going out either, I just wanted to be home, by my own. As the months started passing by, I slowly re-gained back my happiness and when I thought I was ready to get a job I knew I wasn’t ready at all or maybe that job was not the right one, so I ended up rejecting what it was my first job offer; I didn’t feel bad because I trusted myself and what I wanted and what I’ve been looking for in a job and that one wasn’t none of that, so slowly I gave up on things that do not longer matter; somehow along the way, my fears seem to have disappeared also, and I hope they’re gone once for good.

2018 was truly special and magical just the way it was, in every sense of word, shape and form. I am not going to say “I wish this would’ve or wouldn’t have happened” because then, I wouldn’t be where I am at this point and in all honesty, despite of the things that did not happen, I gained much more than that, than what it would be considered something material. So, NO, I don’t wish for anything because this year was SO GOOD to me, and all of this made it truly special and dear to my heart. One for the records, a year I’ll never forget because it has really been special in so many ways and I won’t take that for granted. 

Also, I see myself as a changed person or someone that’s going through lot of changes; not sure exactly how I have changed or what has changed In my persona but I feel different ever since I said NO to that job offer; something feels differently nowadays and I have loved that feeling ever since, it always bring a big smile on my face. 

Thanks 2018 for everything you brought, for everything that happened whether it was good or bad but then ended up turning into good also, thanks for the memories that I'm now going to treasure for a lifetime, thank you for that and so much more! Being closer to God was something I started doing beginning of year then stopped and then got back at it again, and right now, I love the fact that our relationship feels stronger than ever and I’m beyond happy that I’ve reached my goal even though it seemed almost impossible and hard to but now my one and only goal forever is to be always closer to Him .

I know 2019 will be filled with so many blessings and good things but other than that, I’ll strive to work more on my spiritual life and also on myself, to keep on learning and growing and just continue enjoying life and my loved ones and the time I have with them, I wish for nothing but all the best for them, love, happiness, health, peace and the same goes for you guys who have made it this far while reading this long post of mine. I hope your 2019 is filled with amazing, but amazing blessings and many good things! I wish you nothing but the very best always!

With love,

Melissa. xx